So last night I was browsing about looking for something. What I was looking for, I don’t remember at all. Such is life. What I found so redirected my attention that it prompted me to actually do some work on this site again.
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Somehow I found some of my old blogger sites, and the found my old Xanga. I first joined Xanga in 2005, nearly 20 years ago at the delicate age of 15. Man does it show. The posts are angsty, they’re whiny at times, or arrogant, or weird, but they are undeniably me. It’s a peek at what my state of mind was like in high school and college, and what my world view contained.Â
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Xanga as a platform is no more. It looks like they were trying to do a relaunch at some point, but it fizzled out. Thankfully, they have archives available to download and import elsewhere. Thus, last night I downloaded about 100 posts worth of content, and imported it into this site. I have unpublished all of it so far, until I can go through and edit out personal information about myself and others. It is wild to think, with as privacy conscious as I am now, how oblivious I was to such concerns back then.
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Once I clean them up, I’ll publish them under the category “Ancient History”. The material is a bit embarrassing to behold, but it is mine, and it is who I was and am. I used to write all the time and had friends that commented on nearly every post. Maybe this will inspire me to get back into, if for no other reason than to dilute the teenage content. I have one or two other old blogs floating around too. I’ll import those in as well with either the same, or a similar category. I pay for this site after all, and it is in my best interests to consolidate my web presence into one place.Â
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If you choose to thumb through those old missives, please go easy on me. I was a big-hearted kid, and I desperately wanted to not feel alone and to be loved. I am sure we all remember feeling that, accompanied by the terror of doing something about it. These posts constitute a view into vulnerability, and a view into a different time and media landscape. I hope you enjoy them with as much love as I craved whilst writing them.Â